Well, I have been home for about 2 weeks
now and I have gotten the question “so, how was Belize?” about 100 times
(roughly speaking). Some people are genuinely interested and others are being
polite, regardless of their motive, I have no idea how to answer them. It
usually takes me about 30 seconds to respond with a “great,” or “awesome,” or
even “well, I’m going back so I guess it was something!” There aren’t words to
express the millions of emotions and experiences I piled up in the last 10
months. I can’t really seem to wrap my little brain around just exactly what I
experienced.
I
left my home, my family, my culture, and my comfort to teach high school
students. I removed myself from the life that I knew (and loved) and decided to
try to get out of myself; to live for something other than my daily routine. Getting on
the plane last August was uncomfortable for me; I am a homebody and I love my
family dearly, I didn’t really want to leave them. As I hugged my mother
goodbye, she sobbed and begged me to be safe; I then thought of a million
different excuses why I couldn’t go to Belize. But I pushed myself out the door
and stepped on the plane with a little fear in my heart.
It wasn’t until we got there and had a
meeting with the Principal that it was confirmed that I was going to teach
English Grammar to 11th graders and Drama as an elective to 11th
and 12th graders. It had been almost 4 years since I took a English
class myself so I had a lot of brushing up to do. I remember the night before
classes freaking out about teaching. Lucia (another volunteer) turned to me and
said, “Elisabeth, just let them see that you love them.” And that became my
mission. Yes, I did teach English and Drama, and through the grace of God their
grammar and acting skills improved. But more importantly I grew to love and
admire them, and they loved me in return. Like Katie said before, we aren’t just
teachers we are their counselors, mothers, coaches, and quite frequently
entertainers! Some people have asked me “so what exactly do you do in Belize?”
My answer is this: I try my utmost best to love those amazing kids and
become worthy of the love they give me, while teaching them proper grammar.
I guess I could say that in my one
year in Belize I became a teacher, I discovered the truth about teenagers, I
learnt how to take care of a liter of puppies, I became a cockroach killing
machine, and I discovered just how thin my patience really is, and that is all
true, but if you want to know what I found in Belize, it’s exactly what is to
be found here in the States, and that is a thirst for love. I came across a
quote from the author Fyodor Dostoevsky one day and
I was struck by the truth and simplicity in it: "Try to love your neighbors.
Love them actively and unceasingly. And as you learn to love them more and
more, you will be more and more convinced of the existence of God and of the
immortality of your soul."
I remember on my onky class with you after you chased me away after the first week. You said " I would rather teach primary students instead" but then you met me and that changed your whole mind on this class (Drama) :-) . Which was cool for only having two classes with you. But, I'm glad you changed your mind about teaching other students and coming back to teach us, well not me cause I'm not returningback.. Your ex-ex-student Edson!
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